Making it work.
I recently had some correspondance with a good friend about "the great scheme of things". The friend is around my age and in the same situation. This situation I speak of I have narrowed down to "what happens when you are 27 and improving by leaps and bounds in your sport, but feel external pressure to move on with your life".
True, there aren't a lot of us in this age group who are still going for it. Most of the women still in the sport at this age have already "made it". I struggle with this fact every day, but have also come to the realization that perhaps I'm one of the few that get to have this experience and life at this age, perhaps I don't have to "move on with my life", perhaps this IS my life. To be honest its a pretty damn good one at that.
True, I get stressed out a lot (due to financial stress, carrear stress, family stress, marriage stress, life stress etc. etc.), but I don't think that is the nature of everyone in this said "situation". I have come to realization its my personality to blow almost every issue out of proportion and believe that any set back is actually the end of the world. Its actually not, and some have labeled me as a "drama junky", not really knowing if the root of the drama is because I get bored and create it for entertainments sake or if it actually is an external event out of my control happening to me.
At any rate, questioning yourself is a good thing, and always striving to succeed is a good thing, no matter what pursuit you chose. Eventually you will know when that pursuit has ended and all of the sacrifices, set backs and yes, drama will be well worth it in the end when you finally sit down and reflect on the journey, so you might as well make it a great journey, oh and enjoy every minute of it