Down time is definetly not my strong suit. Atleast in the past two years it hasn't. Last year I took 7 days off and then started racing mountain bikes. This year, was a different story- I haven't been on my bike and I took a FULL three weeks off completely from training! I was exhausted.
The past season was awesome! I improved a ton and I got to race in my first World Cup and then I travelled to Europe with Dasha and some others.
However, today they posted the National Team. I didn't make it. I knew that it was going to be a a bit of stretch, but I will say that I am still a little upset and there were definetly tears- I guess I just kept believing up until today and my heart kind of just did a dive bomb. A lot of people have told me that I had a great season and I was so close and that I should be on the team, but I'm not, and I know I need those coveted world cup points to have made it. At the same time I am a bit confused about what I need to do. I can't be bitter, its a waste of energy. So now I just surround myself with the people I love and those that understand and see what happens- this is the life I chose and supported by the National Team or not I have to find a way to be the best!
The cool part is that I know I have improved and I know I have a lot left in me. During February and march I could feel that I was getting stronger and that it will just take another summer of training, of focusing on every step and training with a purpose and goal everyday. I know I can make the Olympic team, I believe I can.
The thing is the realization of knowing I need to believe and then implementing that unwavering confidence in yourself seems to be where I get a little lost. Okay very lost. I bombed the world cup for no other reason then I was completely and utterly petrified. How can you be petrified of a dream? or furthermore of a dream that you are living and chose to live? the only answer I have to this is that failure and doubt just immobilize you to the point that it screws up the habit all of us Nordo's and endurance athletes have worked so hard to make a habit- the ability to just push and go into a pain cave. What I realized at the World Cup is that I am just as fit as any of those girls, I have great technique, but I am still scared of pushing it and taking a chance when it matters. Its kind of odd because I take chances all the time in training and smaller races. Sometimes I blow up, but more often then not I don't. So the biggest goal this summer will be to take more chances in intensity and race simulations- I can't play it safe anymore.
I should have confirmation of what I will be doing for the summer and 2008/2009 season shortly and will let you know the direction then.
However, what I do know is that I am hungry to win. I'm hungry to race and that more then anything is what is important to me!
Thanks to everyone for the support this year!
Final Standing in Canada: 6th Distance (moved from 12th last season), 7th Sprint (moved from 26th last season)...thats pretty awesome!!! :) FIS world Cup Eligibility!!! WOOOHHHOOOO
The past season was awesome! I improved a ton and I got to race in my first World Cup and then I travelled to Europe with Dasha and some others.
However, today they posted the National Team. I didn't make it. I knew that it was going to be a a bit of stretch, but I will say that I am still a little upset and there were definetly tears- I guess I just kept believing up until today and my heart kind of just did a dive bomb. A lot of people have told me that I had a great season and I was so close and that I should be on the team, but I'm not, and I know I need those coveted world cup points to have made it. At the same time I am a bit confused about what I need to do. I can't be bitter, its a waste of energy. So now I just surround myself with the people I love and those that understand and see what happens- this is the life I chose and supported by the National Team or not I have to find a way to be the best!
The cool part is that I know I have improved and I know I have a lot left in me. During February and march I could feel that I was getting stronger and that it will just take another summer of training, of focusing on every step and training with a purpose and goal everyday. I know I can make the Olympic team, I believe I can.
The thing is the realization of knowing I need to believe and then implementing that unwavering confidence in yourself seems to be where I get a little lost. Okay very lost. I bombed the world cup for no other reason then I was completely and utterly petrified. How can you be petrified of a dream? or furthermore of a dream that you are living and chose to live? the only answer I have to this is that failure and doubt just immobilize you to the point that it screws up the habit all of us Nordo's and endurance athletes have worked so hard to make a habit- the ability to just push and go into a pain cave. What I realized at the World Cup is that I am just as fit as any of those girls, I have great technique, but I am still scared of pushing it and taking a chance when it matters. Its kind of odd because I take chances all the time in training and smaller races. Sometimes I blow up, but more often then not I don't. So the biggest goal this summer will be to take more chances in intensity and race simulations- I can't play it safe anymore.
I should have confirmation of what I will be doing for the summer and 2008/2009 season shortly and will let you know the direction then.
However, what I do know is that I am hungry to win. I'm hungry to race and that more then anything is what is important to me!
Thanks to everyone for the support this year!
Final Standing in Canada: 6th Distance (moved from 12th last season), 7th Sprint (moved from 26th last season)...thats pretty awesome!!! :) FIS world Cup Eligibility!!! WOOOHHHOOOO
